July has been so HOT here in southern California. Our air conditioning broke two days ago, and here I sit waiting for the technician to finish installing a whole new system, a multi thousand dollar job. But you know what, it's all good. I have an emergency fund for things like this, I've prepared. Of course I wish I didn't have to spend money on this kind of stuff, but life happens. I'm lucky, really, because I will have nice cool air soon. I can't wait.
So on the drinking front, I have to say, I've enjoyed beer this month. I don't feel bad about it, as I haven't drank to numb or chase things away from my life. It's just been so good, a few cold beers, well a couple times I drank 5 beers, but through out an afternoon and evening. It been six times I've drank this month, and I may drink one more time this month, as the our local, chili cook-off is this weekend. Will I go back to daily drinking, wine being the beast it's been to me? I don't think so. My mind set is different, I'm content, grateful, appreciative and at peace with myself. I know this may backfire on me, and I'm taking a chance going backwards, I am taking a big risk, but I am happy.
I have this blog to keep me on my toes, only for myself. Staying honest about this whole journey is important. I was in such a ugly, bad place three years ago, when I first came across the blog world, looking for help. Now, I feel so much better where I am at, I don't want to go back to where I was three years ago.
So, I shall keep trying, less drinking days next month for sure.
