Thanksgiving

I'm thankful for being alive, well, and happy.

I'm haven't been alcohol free since my last post, but I've been back on track, drinking way less and not in excess.  Small steps, but steps in the right direction.

May all of you who celebrate the USA holiday, be well, content and at peace.

I am.

Signs

Well, I'm getting there, since my last post, I have drank some beer, not much.  As SamK wrote, just pick a day and start again.  I thought that day was Sunday, November 4th.  I wanted to be fresh for my 22nd wedding anniversary, on November 9th.  All my plans to "not" drink were in order, then my mother-in-law broke her other hip on Monday, November 5th.  As my husband is her only child, he's always running to help her in these situation.  In the last 8 years, she has broken her back, left wrist, right foot, right hip (which she broke in June of this year), stent and pace maker implant, and now her left hip brake.  She lives 2 1/2 hours from us, and it's hard to commute back and forth, but we do it.  The relationship with his mom is a tough one, a whole story in itself, but needless to say, it flows over to us.  However, this time, we were both in sync.  As she broke her hip before, we knew what to expect and how to handle.  So after a few days with her, we were on our way back home.  She lives in Palm Springs, and we were driving on the 10 freeway hoping to beat the work home traffic, when I saw a billboard with the message, "Sobriety is the Priority".  It was a sign from my higher power, God saying, don't let this situation be an excuse to wait to start again.

May the sings continue to show up!!

Struggling

I have not gotten back on track with NOT drinking.

I am struggling. 

I haven't given up wanting to be sober.  I've just been in denial thinking drinking here and there is fine.  It's not.  I have fallen back to old habits which are self-destructive. 

It's time to TRY again.  I did so well the first half of this year, and it was good.  I know it can be good again.

“Some of the most beautiful things we have in life comes from our mistakes.” 
― Surgeo Bell