The Sweet Spot

In the past two years, in addition to trying to get 100% sober, I have been exploring other areas of enlightenment/self-improvement for myself.  Turning 50, it hit me, I was on the down side of my life; meaning, I had lived longer than I was going to live until I died.  Accidents aside, given the statistics, I can live another 30+ years.  Of course, how I take care of myself is a big part of equation.  Not only my physical self, but my mind and spirit as well.

I have always known eating right and exercising are an important key to a healthy life.
I am not religious, was raised a token Catholic, however, I do believe there's a higher power.
I know education broadens one's horizons.
I know hard work pays off in results.
I know spending less than you earn, will help you save money.
I know being kind, caring and loving is key to connecting with people.

I know...etc.

But even knowing all the above, I've grappled with feelings of inadequacies because I haven't (and still don't) follow the best course of action for a perfect life. Then it finally dawned on me.  I will never have a perfect life.  NEVER.  I can, however, have a rich, rewarding, wondrous and full life just being ordinary, just being me.  The best me, I can be.  And so as I venture down paths of self-knowledge, I have to remember, it's okay to stumble, make mistakes, fall down. I just have to remember to get back up and move forward towards a better life.

As for drinking, well, it has it's sweet spot, one drink a day for women (men get to have two).  I haven't been able to keep it to one drink (occasionally yes, but rarely).  So, knowing this, I should not drink period.  I'm still working on this one.  Day 11.