Buddies Do Help!

I have two blog buddies I communicate with off our blog sites (and on to them too at times).

Habit and I started helping each other back in April.  Jim and I, only recently, although we did initially touch base two years ago.  Today I was sharing with Habit, and I decided a portion of what I wrote her, I would share here.  It's something I want to remember.

Who knows when, how, why, and if we will ever truly stop 100% drinking alcohol.  I know I want too, but I don't know why I haven't made it stick.  I refuse to accept I am weak, bad, stupid, or insane.  I am not perfect.   As long as I move towards being better and better, in any number of things I'm dealing with, then it's progress.  I am okay and good enough.  And I have to hold on to that knowledge.  Many can, will, do judge what I'm expressing here, and that's okay too.  I have to do me.

You do you!  

I'm on a dry streak, since Sunday, 9/8 so today makes it day 12, 11 days down.  I haven't had much urges.  I think it's because I am motivated by Jim.  No idea how long this will last, but so far, not much thinking on when I will drink next.  This isn't to say, I won't fall and that this time, I know I will never drink again!  Not sure if this is good or not good to think this way.  I've done so many times, where I've said, written, believed, "this is it."  For it not to be so.  What I know, right now, and for today, at least, is I won't drink alcohol.  As Scarlett O'Hara so famously said, "I can't think about that now.  If I do, I'll go crazy.  I'll think about that tomorrow."

Not bad advice from Scarlett.