Goodbyes

My daughter left last night, back to Germany and her hubby.  I miss her already.  She's lived aboard for 2 years now, and I've gotten used to her being away.  When she first left, I cried and cried.  I felt the change in our relationship, by her marrying and moving so far away, would end our closeness.  It didn't.  We are as close as ever.  She plans to move back to the USA soon.  I can't wait for that day!

A few people have died unexpectedly this year, my step-father, my boss, and the son of a very good friend.  Even, just two days ago, a co-workers little dog (only had him a year) died.  While I don't mourn for the dog per-say, I do feel for my co-worker, as she is very upset and sad.  I'm getting at an age where people passing and me having to saying goodbye to them is reality.  We all die, but we don't think about it much, until we have quite a few years under our belts.  The hard part, is when people leave unexpectedly and/or at young age, which was the case with my three deaths this year.
I didn't get to say goodbye to any of them, and it makes me feel lost. I choose to believe they have gone on to where all of us do when we pass, into our loved ones minds and hearts.

And so, in a couple days, I'm saying GOODBYE to alcohol.  This goodbye has been long in coming, too long in fact.  This goodbye, is a needed goodbye. While I'm a little scared, I more so happy for it to finally be here!  Really I am.

So goodbyes this year have been plenty for me, in many ways.

The most important and best one is just a couple days away. 

I am ready.

Hello sobriety!  Here I come!!