Spring

The first day of Spring.  Southern California is sunny more times than not, especially by this time of the year, but wouldn't you know it, we are to have our biggest rain storm, of the year, in the next day or so.  We need the rain, so it's really a blessing, but the darker days haven't been good for my mood.  This year just isn't going the way I envisioned.

I started the year off with a great attitude about giving up drinking once and for all!  The first 40 days or so it was pretty easy, but as time has gone by I've lost the enthusiasm.  Why?  It doesn't really matter the why, it's just the case.  I knew it was going to get tough at times, but I thought I'd have a better attitude about it all.  Good old attitude.

Today, I told myself to just let it all go.  Let the new "seeds" of gratitude, contentment and joy set in to grow.  I'm lucky in so many ways.  I have my health, food and shelter; I have people who care and love me; I have enough money to take care of my family; I have a decent paying job; I have more than enough in my life to be thankful for, so just be appreciative.

As many have shared, I'm worth it to be happy, if I just let the agony of drinking go.

Today is the first day of Spring, a new day to start fresh.