What a year, a world-wide pandemic, COVID-19; not over yet, but hopefully it will be so in 2021.
I cannot say enough, I am glad this year is over.
Very unusual, Christmas this year, for all of us, given the pandemic. Spending the day with just my husband and me, different, but not bad.
Presents are not the focus of this year; family and friends are, reaching out and letting them know how much they mean to us is important. That is exactly what I have been doing for a while now; today even more so.
And my present to myself, not drinking today.
Merry Christmas Everyone!
I started 2020, not drinking; COVID hit, world changed and I took up drinking, again.
I am going to end 2020, not drinking; COVID still around, and I stopped drinking, again.
All I can say, is try, try, again.
Christmas will be different this year. Not just for me, but for the world. I am going to make merry anyway. For the 12 days before Christmas, I am giving myself permission to eat anything I want. Better than drowning my sorrows in booze.
Today is Thanksgiving in the US; the start to the holiday season. Given the pandemic, it is not going to be the typical gathering of family and friends, which is sad. However, I am grateful those around me, family and friends, have not been hit with the virus. We are all well. I am sad for those who have been affected by this awful virus, whether by contacting it and/or having loved ones pass; losing jobs and connections with people, etc. It's been a tough year.
I have great hopes for the near future. I haven't given into the "end of the world" mentality of it all. I believe, "this too shall pass". I am hopeful for better times to come. Until then, I have many things to be thankful for, too many to list here, but the one I will share is 18 days without a drink!
That is something to be greatly, thankful for today.
Mondays are, well...
Anyway, it was a productive day. And it was a day where I questioned, why?
Why stop drinking?
I know why.
But still, the thoughts through my head went there.
It was bound to creep up, the thoughts of why, why, why...
Tomorrow is another day. A new day.
It's Saturday night, just before 8pm.
I got through the weekend! Given the time right now, and that I ate dinner, I know no cravings will rear up for the rest of the evening.
Today was a good day. My husband and I went to one of our local beaches and had lunch. When my husband ordered a beer, I didn't get too jumpy. As I've written in the past, my husband can order the one beer and that's it. I knew one beer wasn't worth crying about, at least this time I felt that way. The rest of the day we ran errands then came home.
Tomorrow, I made plans to get up early to visit my sister. My mom is going to meet us there. It will be another good, nice day. I haven't been able to hang out with them as much as I'd like, given the times. When we are together, the time flies. As Sunday's are all day football games (here in the US) my husband enjoys his time watching football without me!
It has been a very, long while since I have strung together 6 days without drinking.
So far, so good.
Here I go, giving it another shot.
The years are sliding by, and I am still drinking, not making it to stay sober.
I won't give up till I die.
I do not need to drink.
I do not want to drink.
I need to hold on to that feeling when the time will get tough.
Here I go again.