Sixty days in, back at the beginning of March, I wrote about this month being "motivational". I wanted to do different things, incorporate new ideas, try stuff out of my normal routine, etc. Well, I haven't managed much of anything it seems. I keep my home up (not like typical) with the minimal amount of effort; I eat out too often because I don't want to cook; I go to work; I mostly read or play Candy Crush on the computer; and I try "not" to be a bit@h to my husband. I feel in limbo.
I know it's not the end of the world, but I'm disppointed in myself. I shouldn't be, but I am.
Feelings change, so maybe "motivational" March was really meant to be "mundane". Which is okay. Tomorrow is another day. And who knows, April can be so many things.
The good thing, I'm still sober.
Hey “still sober” is a big thing all by itself so don’t sell yourself short. There’s a Billy Joel lyric “I found that just surviving is a noble fight” and he’s right. Sober “doing nothing” is still a growing and learning process. One of these days doing more will feel right and happen all by itself. I did a -lot- of nothing for months. Happy Saturday!
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Thanks Sam! I am growing and learning from being sober, I just feel like it's a very slow process, but at least I'm moving forward, right? LOL!
DeleteThere’s a lot of peace in the mundane.
ReplyDeleteThere is Anne, sometimes I forget the simple things. Thanks!
DeleteI see that Mark Goodson has commented on your last post, you should check out his blog and story as his is called The MIRACLE of the Mundane (emphasis mine). Every day you finish the day sober is a great day and you have achieved enough. Quitting booze should come with one caveat "do as little as you can for the next 365 days. Unless you feel highly motivated and driven"
ReplyDeleteMy energy came in fits and starts as it still does and I spent weeks getting into bed at 8:30 with a book and wasting the weekend thinking about jobs but not doing them. At times though I spent days or weeks busting my butt redecorating or pulling down my garage. Long comment but the upshot is do as little as possible unless you feel moved to do something.
Thanks GG, I'll take the advice, "do as little as possible unless..". Make sense 100%!
DeleteIm with Ginger, dont put pressure on yourself. Just do what you want. This stage will pass, like you said you're still sober and thats what matters. Everything else can wait.
ReplyDeleteThanks PDTG! Everything else can wait, it right!
DeleteYes, to all of the above!!
ReplyDeleteStaying sober is enough right now!
And it's the simple things in life that really do bring so much pleasure!
xo
Wendy
True Wendy, I'm forgetting about the simple things, which are numerous when one looks for them. Thanks!
DeleteLia - It's ok to feel a bit lacklusture. It's part and parcel of our mind and body recovering. As for motivation: Your first sentence says it all "Sixty days in, back at the beginning of March". That is motivation together with the fact that it is now almost the end of March and you are still sober.
ReplyDeleteFor now, don't worry about not getting this, that and the other done. Just concentrate on YOU. The rest will follow. xx
Thanks Mrs. W! I feel so much better for all the input above. I am doing a lot, just by not drinking!
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